If You Let Me

When sleep disappeared
And your midnight call deprived me of such luxury.
Past emotions surfaced.
Doors sealed shut burst open.
And your questions were striking faster than lightning.

I felt as naked as a new born,
And as vulnerable and helpless as an ailing elderly.

I cried
Until I laughed
And laughed until I cried.

I felt like I was on trail
As we traveled memory lane.
Until we hit our destination of today
Where I was found guilty of not loving you adequately.

When I asked you to love me.
And give me a chance,
In that same soft, unsure, yet hopeful voice
That you once asked me not to leave you.

I felt my voice break,
My heart bound,
And my world paused.
As I laid on my tear soaked pillow
And waited for your answer.

The silence felt like forever
As I waited for your answer.
However, none ever prepared me
For what it would fee like
To hear the man you love tell you,
That he loves you as unconditionally
As he does his mother.

I doubt I am worthy of that love because of what I've done
Or that second chance
But I am sure as hell going to earn it this time around
If you let me.

"Twisted Elegance

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